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do you know..

i dont feel good?
i feel like crying? i feeel like shouting?
i'm hurting deep inside.
&i've alot of other worries/problems of my own?
problems no one can help me, except myself..
AND.. actually, i'm dont have to be forever there.

and.. did you realise...

i feeel so stuck and yet, i've to say.. i'm ALRIGHT.

i can tell you.. .
you wont know how i feel because you're so ----
or maybe, i need attention from YOU..
and, i might explode one day.

MAYBE, i'm the mad one.. who is feeling sad for nothing?
MAYBE hur?

laughing things off is the only thing i can do.
ELAINE IS NOT AS STRONG AS YOU THINK SHE IS.
or rather, you think too highly of her. but pls, dont..

false front, a false happy front.
happy ending is something i wish for, and yet.. do it exist? i'm like pursuing something thats impossible.
i wish i can make myself =D right now, this very second.

today, supposingly to be a =D day for me, turn out to be my emotion outburst. ):
but, yup.. i did enjoy myself at speech day. REALLY enjoyed. =D

leave me alone. dont ask me anything. i might not take it... anymore


i know, you're still there for me.
but, i do need to grow up?
&i dont know why..
right now, i simply dont have the courage to..
pick up my hp and sms you...